i brieftly scan thru the names of my msn list. i dont necessary feel like chatting. i just wanna see whats been going on with the others. some nicks express sadness, other days a happy face is enough. love message, sad message, hopeless, helpless, clueless messages all over their nicks. i hesistate to click on it. probably i was afraid of facing the same answers i would give to anyone on the verge of breaking away. like if i ask " how are you " and if my nick refers to "my life sucks big time". i really hate entertaining such messages. i wonder if they truly care. why ask something that is so plain obvious. but then again if they dont, why would they even bother to click on me. ah. i'm just blabbering away...